BROKEN

I wanted to believe you are different. No, I thought you were different

The heart never wanted small talks. Texting me and without saying “I love You", tell me why you never say that “You love me". I always tell you that I love you but you never reply, my voice trembled, do you love someone else?.

I was madly in love with him, every time We fought ,this was the wee hours of the relationship ,I would weep, scream and curse him, Why? My eyes are running dry like dams in the desert, can’t you see the pain you are causing to my heart.

I wanted someone who would see the thunderstorms in my eyes and still kiss me goodnight. Someone who will text me, love me because they know I need reassurance I am still the one you want. Someone who would let me choose the movie even though I picked last time. Someone who would hold my hand in crowds and kiss me in front of people who want them. I just wanted someone who would love me everyday.

The heart beckoned with irresistible louder beats and anxiety. The sun was in my eyes, the red Flag was blown through my eyes but crept still under the pole, all signs were there. But do you know why I didn't listen?. Because I wanted to trust you, believe your feelings were real. I wanted to believe you meant what you said,everytimes, the sun warmed my closed eyelids, and my heart would melt with flooded sweet fragrance of love. I wanted to believe the way you looked at me meant you are going to stay no matter what. To believe you didn’t want to break me.

We held hands, we kissed, we showed each other true love. Where did we go wrong? What happened to us? Why am I crying instead of laughing.

I wanted to believe you are different. No, I thought you were different…”BROKEN”